But i guess some people are just like that. I wish i could just ignore or even forget them. If only i could...
4 more papers to go. I think i am quite obviously screwed this sem. The only thing is to try as hard as possible to fall by too much.
Can't wait for the holidays though!! One more month to X'mas!! The month of December looks set to be a terrific month, i hope. =p
As the day goes, somehow i think more and more. Maybe it's cuz the lectures are not interesting enough. Hahah. But yea, i caught myself drifting away again during lecture.
There's a thousand and one things which i can plan to say and do. But ultimately it's quite the anti-climax at the end of the day. Is it me? Or your attitude?
And so my day turns into a grumpy crappy one as night falls.
I HATE nights. Cold and lonely. Anti-climax.
Emo crap again.
I want to go home!! :'(
Somehow i think i can guess what's happening. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out. Might as well, i don't think i want to hear it from you anyway. Just leave it as that...
...that i don't take rejections(of any sorts) well. Once i make up my my mind on something, i will be more than terribly disappointed when i don't get the desired outcome. Okay, so the intial moments will be super emotional. But there's really nothing much i can do. External locus of control? Move on, as usual.
...that i seem to cry a lot recently, usually out of sight of people. I shan't say the cheery funny me is a facade. But i guess it's true. Even a clown has a sad side under all those jokes and laughter. A sad clown.
...that i hate, detest in fact, loneliness. Maybe that's why i think friendships and being in a group is so important. Sadly though, most people are too busy with their hectic schedules, except me.
...that a lot of people are dating/ getting attached/ etc. All around me. Not that i want to think about it. It's unavoidable that they will talk about their r/s. Not that i am blaming them. It's just so overwhelming. Wherever i go, whichever group of friends i am with, it's just unavoidable. And more often than not, i find myself the only person who is alone, with no person in mind or in sight. And yea, it's my fault apparently according to them.
...that i am hostile? Friendliness vs hostility. Such a thin fine line. Don't ask me why, cuz i have no idea why am i reacting/behaving this way. Or maybe i can guess but some things are better left unsaid.
...that i have lost joy/motivation for life in general. Nothing seem to excite me anymore. The only thing to look forward to is the next gathering, team dinner, etc. I seem to have lost it all: Bowling, Running, NPCC. I can't find solace anywhere.
...that i was so foolish to believe that i could confide in you or rely on you for help. Human beings are selfish. I admit i am. Oh wells. Need to adapt to become independent again i suppose.
...that i am so -ve about life. How loser-ish can i be. Well, at least i know i am not going into depression or anything of that sort. How long more can i wait before i get out of this down period in life? How long more must i wait...
Random blabberings.
-sighx-
旧的不去，新的不能来。。。
Was it blown out of proportion? Maybe. I am kinda regretting swearing with caps. :( But at that point 'teramat marah' and 'sangat benci' just isn't enough.
If i am over-sensitive, then you must be plain INsensitive. Funny how people around made me realise what sort of person you are. Some people can be just so blind.
Does it matter if i think it doesn't count? No. Because the 2 of you will insist you are right anyway.
Anyway I chose not to reply anymore not because i lost and have nothing to say. Replying will be never-ending and pointless. Just end it. Maybe i shouldn't even have replied in the first place. But if there's one thing that i have changed, i can't stand bottling things up anymore. But seems like thrashing it out isn't helping too.
On a side note though, life can be so jaded and cynical even though there's only ONCE.
I do wonder if it's a jiran thing. It's uncannily similar how both people can be so demeaning and deriving joy at the expense of others. INsensitive. And all these over consecutive days. Thanks.
Sometime i wonder if it helps to blog at all. Doing work earlier help take my mind off. But somehow blogging now makes me think even more. Okay. Let's just keep it that whatever that i don't remember shall just be kept that way, i hope.
Looking at my tweets the past week, 9/10 of them are negative. And there are more than a few different causes. If this is not a bad week then i really can't imagine what is. On the brighter side, the week is ending. And really, i don't think life can get any much worse than this, can it? :X I wonder how long more can i pick myself up.
Gastric pains acting up again last night. I am starting to wonder if it's really just gastric pains or something else. I have been eating properly all along. Hmmm... Shall see how it goes.
Out of the team. Sad, yes. Disappointment? I would be lying if i say i wasn't. But I tried my best. I did everything i could. Maybe Daddy is right, i just can't do sports. I think he must be the happiest person now since i can't bowl anymore.
What should i do now? I feel like i went through and lost a lot this week. I don't think people understand. I thought you would, before i finally realised the insensitivity. Then again, you never had problems like mine to begin with.
What's the point of having another soul in the room when most of the time you only hear your own voice and echoes.
On the brighter side, since it's so crappy this week, i don't think it'll get any worse. And the week is ending soon. Thank goodness. I seem to say this so often but does a better week actually come after that? Beyond my control. Alrights, let me not ask for a good week. Saya tak perlu untuk menjadi gembira. Selama saya tak sedih juga baik.
Something to ponder about:
"The word "Maaf" appears so often til the meaning is lost. Do you really mean it or is it just another convenient excuse to make your exit?" ~Unknown
Caught Fann+Chris Wedding of the Year on Channel. Not exactly a fan of theirs but this wedding of theirs somehow just piqued my interest. Maybe it's all the hype and stuff. But really they are just so loving and happy. Can't help smiling and feel happy for them during that hour long episode.
Fate. Either you find the one or you don't.
Just saw a couple of pics on FB earlier. 2 years and going strong. Many say it's a mismatch, (yes, i am one of those...) but still they are together. I guess i should be happy for them. So cute and sweet of them to get matching rings for the anniversary, complete with engraved names. And i suppose people who think that it's silly or ugly are just blind or plain Bastard.
Rings. A symbol of love and togetherness. I think it was a long long time ago that i stop wearing rings as an accessory and swear i won't ever wear any rings ever again, unless it is from the one. Somehow or other the heart and tear-ducts seem to always twitch when i see those things. Looks like i will die not having worn another ring ever again.
Totally feeling like a piece of emo crap right now. -urghhh-
Selections. Something else to worry about. Even though i say i have given up, but can i really swallow it when i don't make it? What should i do? Thinking so much doesn't help at all. Yes, i haven't been thinking about it at all since yesterday.
Fate. Can i take consolation from the fact that at least i've tried my best? :/
I am FUCKING PISSED OFF now.
Under normal circumstances, i won't even type nor even say out that word. But i just feel that i had to type it out tonight to vent this frustration and anger.
Some idiot made me read my last entry last night. Painful? Yes. I can't help but to think that it has always been the same case, last month and this month.
I think it's not fair. Yes, life is NEVER fair. But when you say it's mutual, you better mean that it's MUTUAL. I can't resist saying no, but why is it that i can't be the to say yes? It was silly of me to not bring it up in the past. But when i finally did today, what did i get? NO. Have i ever turned down a request? So much for waiting.
One week of absence. It was a happy week last week. I thought it would be too this week. But i guess happiness has always been short-lived in my life. I can't tell which is which now: Anger? Misery? Frustration?
1a.m., alone in Can A. 2nd block of selections later. I should have been well asleep now. As if this week isn't bad enough already. Thanks for making my life all the more crappy. I just can't seem to run away from Murphy's Law.
Cold-hearted, ignorant Bastard.
I HATE YOU.
For all that you have done, sometimes i really wish very much that i have amnesia and have you removed from my memories.
All my thoughts are so incoherent now and i don't know exactly what i want to say. All i know is that i feel vexed. Super frustrated. I don't seem to know what i want. Or maybe more like i can't seem to get what i want? -shucks- I am so lost. One thing i know though: I want to be HAPPY. The search for happiness? I think it's true. Some people look for it in all the wrong places, to the point where they resort to short-term satisfaction to be happy. Short-term, is something that's not sustainable. Somehow or other, i end up hurting myself in the end. Not once, not twice... I've lost count. Platonic? No strings attached? Yes. Of course i know. But i am lying to myself. Seriously, i keep insisting that i've grown up and moved on. But have i really been successful in doing so? All these are suppose to be 'part and parcel' of life. Everybody else moves on soon enough but i seem to be stuck in the past. Did i 'choose' to not move on? Of course i want to. But i don't know how/why.
I had a 2nd chance to redeem myself this weekend. But i fumbled, yet again. History very much repeated itself. The dream which i very much want to see come true just couldn't. After so many years. And i guess i won't ever have the chance again. In a way, i am the cause of my problems i reckoned. Self-inflicted pressure and stress? I hate to admit it but the signs are there. But i suppose the disappointment came more that the effort wasn't there at all. No effort. No motivation. Nothing? After all these years. So familiar yet so distant. Maybe i should take consolation from the fact that there won't be a next time too. Distractions are the last thing that should affect a person.
I don't know why am i so hard up. Maybe it's because i see too many happy couples ard. As much as i insist that i enjoy singlehood and everything else that comes with it, but deep down i am just another liar, yet again. All those single people out there, how many of them truly want to be single? I don't think human beings are suppose to live their lives alone. I use to think there's such a thing as 'a happy ending', where 2 people live happily ever after. As childish and cliche this sounds i still thought it was possible. I used to believe that there's one person in the whole wide world whose meant for the other. But as i grew older, and as the time got shorter, somehow life became so jaded and cynical because it just doesn't happen. Am i fussy or picky? Myabe/Maybe not. Who are you to judge me anyway? Hmm.. I think my cynicism is obviously showing.
Not like i have given up completely and don't try. I still do, once in a while. But everytime i fail, badly. I did something which i've never done before the other day.The idea came rather out of the blue and really it seem so impromptu, yet of cuz it was well-planned on my part. It went okay initially i suppose? Or at least i thought it was. There was awkward moments. But i guess one can never run away from the fact that it's just a huge mis-match right from the start. Crazy. The thing which really irked me though was that there wasn't even a bye. Period. Just as well. Get out before the ship sinks deeper. At the end of the day, the issue is still on the diff in 'tahun'.
If there ONE thing i realised over the past week:
I hate being ignored. How would you feel if you try talking to somebody only to draw blank responses? And it doesn't just apply to conversations per se. Am i really so small and inisgnificant that you can't even acknowledge my presence?!
I really need to focus and be more productive. Been so lost lately. Okay. At least i feel better now. This is about the only place left where i might find some form of solace. This week is suppose to be a brand new week and a better one. Hopefully this comes true. Gonne indulge in work and more trainings to occupy myself. A busy person has lesser time to think i reckoned. When you can't solve the problems, the next best thing is to avoid and run away then. -sighx-
Life goes on...
And in case you were wondering, the first day of school sucks, for the most part of it that is. First lesson of the day started at 12.30pm. Waited for the shuttle bus before 12noon only to see the bus arriving after 12.15pm. WTH. The bus was FULL and so stuffy inside. Yes, i haven't been driving to school (from the hall that is..) of late because of parking & environmental issues. Lolx. But i am really contemplating going back to the old ways. Somehow there seem to be a HUGE influx of students around school this sem. RAN pass the canteen (because i was like LATE no thanks to the bus..) only to see like another million people. Seems like there's really A LOT of people in school now. This sucks.
Add/drop period opened at 1300hrs. Managed to add 2 more modules through the iPhone!! -woots- And i actually beat my friend who was using her MacBook. Lolx. And then there were 2 other friends who couldn't add using the school computers in the comp lab. I am deeply in LVOE with my iPhone!! =p
Had 3 hours of Chemistry core lessons. 2 hours spectro + 1 hr physical chem. Bored/ Dead/ Dry/ Sian/ etc... You get the idea. And this is only the beginning!! :-/ None of the modules this sem actually interest me, except maybe Prob & Stats and Malay lang. -sighx- Really need to buck up and pull up the grades.
Trying to be more disciplined this sem and force myself to study and get things done, INSTEAD of spending time on the comp surfing and playing away. I guess i should practise what i preach right? =p
Shall attempt to sleep early tonight. Oh and did i mention? The weather is freaking HOT & HUMID!! Even the air-con shuttle bus and lect theatres are not COLD at all. It's stuffy and warm in there. Gosh, what's happening to NTU. And really, this warm sticky feeling is NOT conducive for studying at all!! *tsk*
School's starting in like a weeks' time. And probably i'll have more time to blog when i am staying in the hostel.
Anyway, blogging feels weird now. And i really have no idea where to start from?!
Maybe after i find some inspiration, hopefully soon.
Hahah..
Labels: Randoms
It's been sometime since i last visited my own blog. And suddenly i have quite a few hits after the cake shop i blogged about recently was featured on TV earlier. Hahah. It's a pity though i missed the show. Saw the preview on Monday but forgot about it. -oops-
Anyway, to address some of your questions:
Bakers World LLP
15-8 Jalan Riang
Serangoon Park
Singapore 358987
Tel: 6406 8581
Fax: 6406 3233
Email: mdngw@hotmail.com
The namecard that i got is from this lady called Michelle Ng, and her number is stated as +65 94514840. I am not too sure about opening hours though, wasn't stated in the namecard. And a pity, there isn't a website, at least not that i have heard of.
Anyway, i think its best if you all get to her directly if there's any further questions. =p
And yes, i think the cakes are great!! Plus the fact that it's really affordable. So far the 3 cakes shown in my earlier post are the only ones i have tasted so far. Each is unique in its own way. I can't say which is the best. And i think another highly recommended one is the mango mousse cake (or was it mango cheesecake??). Haven't tried it for myself though. Always sold out i think. Lolx.
Only downside really is that the location maybe a little inaccessible. My Sis complained that she had to walk like about 15mins to get to the shop from the nearest bus stop. (the fact that the shop is located within a large private residential area) But i think the journey is worth it though. =p Hehe.
For those of you who want to have a rough idea of the location, i have found an online map:
http://www.streetdirectory.com/asia_travel/travel/travel_id_1/travel_site_45934/
Nearest MRT: Serangoon (NEL)
Nearest Main Rd: Braddel Rd & Upp Serangoon Rd
Nearest Landmarks: Nanyang JC; Zhonghua Sec Sch; Yangzheng Pri Sch
I hope this helps. And do let me know what you all feel about the cakes after tasting it!! Have fun.. =p
~Cheers
Tried blogging from e-mail, as seen in the last post. Works quite well. But i still haven't figure out how to remove the MSN advertisement at the end of the post. zZz.
Finally some "me time" this afternoon. A few hours alone in the club before the friendly match against SPGG this evening. Thank goodness i brought my lappie along. Would have been super bored otherwise.
Hmm.. despite not updating for a while, the counter on the blog is still jumping a lil. I really wonder who are the people who comes here trying to have a peek at my boring life. Hahah. Blog's dead, but my Twitter is still very much active!! Somehow though most of my friends just can't be bothered with it. Oh wells.
Okie. G2g soon. Some errands to run before the buffet dinner at 7pm. Hahah. Free food!! Oh yes, and did i mention? I have a hell of bowling "marathon" this weekend. And it doesn't help that i am already so tired after this afternoon's training. zZz...
Trying to blog from e-mail aka iPhone.
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I seem to be so pre-occupied everyday that i don't even have time to upload the photos from the trip yet!! And my room is still in a mess. :-/ It's Wednesday already. 2 more days to Area 11 Leadership & Mentoring Skills Course(LMSC) and i've yet to read through the course manuals and stuff. And it doesn't help that we have to be in full-uniform. Darn. More time needed to prepare them. I should start doing something soon... -bleahx-
In addition: Another 21st birthday celebration later; Trip down to VS to collect and submit stuffs tml; Tuition tml evening; DVC Camp set-up on Fri afternoon. There seem to be so much to do all of a sudden!!
Oh oh. And i am supposedly on a "shopping curfew" since Sunday. Day 4 and still looking strong. Hahah. I really wonder how long will i last befor i succumb again.
On another note: Even though some people think Twitter is boring (*rolls eye-ball*) but somehow i found myself quite stuck to it. I found an application on FB recently which links my Twitter account to my FB status!! Yay to me cuz now i just have to update my Twitter account and both sides will have the same updates. Moreover, my blog also has a side bar with my Twitter status. Talk about being well-connected. =p
But the thing i love most? My iPhone!! I am really so thankful to the creators of the iPhone Facebook & Twitter apps!! Thank you for letting us stay connected while on the go. -woots- =p
Labels: Randoms
Anyway, it's been like close to a week that i got back to Sg. And the feeling is sucky, no thanks to the weather. It's hot and humid, and that sucks. I actually felt uncomfortable at times because i couldn't breathe properly. The air is just too saturated with moisture. And the weather... omg horrendous. Seriously, i miss the weather over in Aussie (minus the rain!!). Although i think it must be like really COLD over there right now. The feeling of the sun's rays on you at a temperature of under 15 deg. celsius is just totally awesome. Blah blah blah... I can just go on and on. But not much choice here. Got to ADAPT back to this hot and humid weather.
But really, i think Australia is a fantastic place. It's no wonder that so many Singaporeans decide to migrate over there etc. I can almost see myself living there, although there are many things here which i don't think i'll ever bear to give up. And of the 3 cities i visited(Melbourne, Gold Coast, Sydney), it is without doubt that Sydney is my favourite!! The people, the place, the scenery, the shopping... Well, now i really do hope that NTU has some exchange going on with Australia (esp. Sydney). I want to go over there to study!! Another alternative is to do my I.A. over there?? Gosh, i am really trying all means and ways to go and live Down Under. Lolx. And yes, i can so imagine myself running around Sydney just like the many joggers around. It's just such a beautiful place... -sighx-
And yes despite being back in Sg for almost a week already, i've yet to upload any pictures from the trip!! With an average of 200+ pics a day, i really don't know how long the whole process will take. Look out on FB(facebook) though. That's about the only place i am going to upload on.
Spent a total of 4k over the 2 weeks. Which is almost 1k off budget. :-/ No thanks to the shopping. Just couldn't resist it. The factory outlets there were superb (at least in my terms), not something which can be found in Sg definitely. And the prices were too hard to resist. Shall have an update another time. That's if i ever get down to sitting in front of the comp again after tonight.
And despite me making a "promise" that i shall not shop during the GSS by default that i've bought 'enough' from Australia, i didn't even manage to last past 3 days after i returned. :-/ On the first day of GSS, which also happen to be the first day of the Club21 Bazaar public sale, i "sin-ned" again. What do you expect me to do?! How can anybody miss the Club21 Bazaar, much less come home empty handed?! And really, i think i am officially addicted to that 4 letter word. And in case you still don't have a clue, that 4 letter word reads "S" "A" "L" "E". omg. I am beginning to think that i have a shopping addiction. But then again if i am still sane enough to realise that i MAY have a problem, i am probably still alright.
This weekend was supposed to have been spent on Pulau Ubin, for the sec 2/3 Adventure & Survival Training Camps. But the H1N1 thingy has put MOE on rather high alert and so XY and me have been "barred" from attending the camp. It was a pity initially because we were looking forward to the camp, and having timed our Aussie trip so that we will still be back in time. But wells, i guess fate just has it that we will miss the camp. A lil disappointed yes. Plus the fact that my bowling is so off lately and i couldn't qualify for this month's medal finals. It doesn't help that the cut-off is like a 210 avg this time when usually a 190+ will get you in safely. The competition just got tougher this year. -sighx-
Well on a much MUCH brighter side though, because i had nothing 'official' this weekend, i was able to attend David's 21st party in Batam!! And really, i thought it was such a great experience, something like another round of team-bonding with the rest of the team. =p Shall blog about it another time. Getting kinda late now. And erm, if you think Batam is a boring place, i am pleased to tell you that there's actually shopping on the cheap!! Which means i "sin-ned" even more in less than a week. omg.
Back to work again tomorrow after a 3 week break. I really need to work to upkeep all these expenditures. Talk about high-maintenance. Lolx.
And to those people who think i am a spoilt brat or spendthrift: NO, i don't shop with Daddy/Mummy's money. I work for it and so i deserve every cent of what i spent. And of course i spend well within my means. Just because i have no cash doesn't mean i am broke. I just lvoe my VISA more. =p
Another weekend gone just like that. And guess what? I didn't exactly accomplish much again. zZz. I seem to have a rather long backlog of "to-do"s. Darn. But oh, i really enjoyed bowling this weekend, at NTU Past v Present & Nat. League. =p Finally getting back on track...
Vesak day. Reached the temple just in time before they close for the day. Earlier part of the day, almost the whole day in fact, was spent in the bowling alley. (Very late) lunch at IMM after the event ended. Fish & Co. Totally grossed out. Hahah.
Mother's day today. Tuition in the morning. Bowled Nat. League in the afternoon. Dinner with the family at night, Seafood Harvest @ BJ. Bad choice. The food was such a let-down. And really i thought my 100bucks was not worth it at all. *tsk*tsk* Walked around BJ a lil after that. Nothing caught my eye. Wow. Something new. Hahah.
Oh, and i don't remember if i've mentioned this already.
Good news: I am still going to Australia after all. Decided to go again on Friday morning and by night, the tickets were confirmed and the holiday is back on track! Talk about being fickle-minded. Lolx. But i am so dead. Haven't started packing... And we are flying on Tuesday. omg.
Bad news: I think Australia just confirmed their first case of the H1N1 flu infection. -darn- And erm, at this rate, i think we will need to be quarantined after coming back. :-/ And that means most likely missing ATC/STC. -oops- Bad timing...
And i 've yet to upload the pics from my iPhone. -.-"
So it's been a while since i last blogged. My weekdays are totally boring. I should be slapped for saying this but, i am bored during the holidays!! So much for ending the exams so early this time.
And it doesn't help that the Aussie trip has been cancelled. Out of safety concerns blah blah... Still trying to get over it, after having anticipated so excitedly for it for months. This whole H1N1 thingy has spoilt my plans and ruined my mood. And so now i have a full 2 weeks coming up which i have no plans at all!! :-( Totally irritating. And i am really considering hibernating the time away... -sighx-
And i don't remember if i mentioned this here before. I am NOT going for the UiTM Sports Fiesta in Malaysia this year!! Ultimate :-( All thanks to MOE for not granting me leave of absence from the school attachment in July. Kinda expected the response from them already. I guess it's just a pity the dates had to clash... Gonna miss all the fun over there. *sobx*sobx*
Seems like a double whammy now, with 2 potential trips gone away. :-( There's still a BKK trip with the Sis in end-June though. But it doesn't look too good now either. Thailand is re-scheduling the Asean summit thingy in Phuket in mid-June. And history has shown that the weeks after such a major event has not always been good for tourists and foreigners... -sighx-
On a more positive note. School training has resumed again!! Uncle Adam couldn't make it yesterday due to the ongoing A'div. But i guess i still manage to correct a few mistakes bowling with the other spinners. -whew- I suppose that's the difference about bowling alone and with a group. Lunch with a few of them after training. All the way to Holland V for NYDC. Thanks to Kevin who had a special "interest" with going there, although i still haven't figured out what. Hahah. For once, i actually thought that the main course at NYDC was delicious. Seriously. And i thought only the mudpies were good. Lolx. Skipped that though, too full from the set lunch.
More bowling this weekend. NTU's Past vs Present on saturday. Not really keen on it actually. Not when my shots are all over the place. :-/ But since the team has been formed, i guess i'll just go and try my best. No pressures... And Uncle Dudley sms-ed earlier to see if i was free to bowl National League this Sunday. OCC again. omg. I will try to overcome that jinx/fear of bowling there, although all those "un-desirable" memories seem to haunt me quite a bit. *tsk*tsk*
Supposed to have uploaded some pics since last week. Too LAZY as usual. Soon i hope... :-/
Chanced upon this on a friend's blog. And i vaguely remember seeing this in the papers, or was it on the radio? But anyway, to say that this is darn good is a huge understatement!! Near orgasmic i will say. Hahah.
Enjoy anyway. It's a real MUST WATCH!!
Looking forward to the release of the MP3. =p
Labels: Music
So what have i been busy with post-exam? Totally boring i think, or at least in most people's terms. Started work the very next day already. Hahah. I managed to find a job after all. -whew- But i don't think it's very challenging though. Lolx. Maybe i'll learn more stuff next week. And then there was league bowling on Monday night. Bowled like crap, but still managed to take 3 points from my opponent. Super lucky i guess. End of round 1, and unfortunately my team is currently 4th place. 2 more rounds to go... Oh oh, and i realised something that night. Uncle Benny is actually Amanda's father?! Like after knowing him for a year bowling in the same team, i had no idea at all. It's really a small world. And the bowling community is even smaller i guess. And i am beginning to think that most of the people bowling at the club are actually quite friendly, minus the 'bitching' and 'politics'. Perhaps i am still too "innocent" to be involved. Muahaha... Anyway, my bowling is all over the place again. I guess what they say is true: Sometimes TRYING alone is just not good enough. :-(
Thursday night, a Public Holiday eve, was spent at home watching TV. omg. Exams are over. Maybe it's the low EQ, or maybe i have too few friends. *tsk* I really dislike the idea of staying at home. Don't ask me why. But still i did. -sighx- And it does not help that the shows i want to watch takes forever to load on YouTube. -grrr- I need to get the DVDs soon to occupy myself. On a happier note, the Channel 8 9pm show looks interesting, pitting Chen HanWei (as a traditionalist teacher) and Rui En (as the new-age, funky teacher). Loads of teaching points in the show, highlighting the trends in our society today. Sometimes i wonder what kind of teacher will i be next time... But for sure it'll be nice if i have a car like Rui En's. Hahah. Wishful thinking.
Swensens' earlier in the evening with Daddy & Mummy. Pastas, lagsana, deep fried mushroom(shitake) and a banana split. Nice. But it was almost 70 bucks. *tsk* A pleasant surprise though, we got some random disount vouchers + swensens' dining vouchers. No idea if it was the credit card or the restaurant's promo. Oh wells. And i was rather pissed though, that the parents were in a hurry to go home. Wanted to buy DVDs but the plan was thwarted. And so here i am blogging on the lappie when i could be watching the shows i miss dearly.. *darn*
Went shopping @Queensway S.C. in the day. Shall update again another time.
Swine flu/ Mexican flu/ Novel flu virus/ H1N1 flu/... And the variations in name goes on. Seems like the authorities can't seem to agree on a name, yet. But anyway we all know what i am talking about. The flu which is "taking the world by storm". And it's really not a good thing at all. Especially not when i am looking forward to a much-awaited holiday!! This is rather pissing off. There are currently quite a number of suspect cases in Aus but no confirmed cases yet. There's still another week to go and really, nobody knows what will happen. And we all know how serious things can be overnight. Got to be prepared to cancel the trip i guess. And that's really pissing me off. Should have been busy preparing for the trip after exams but now i don't know what should i be doing. -urghhh- Just sucks big time...
AWARE's EOGM tml afternoon. Not that it directly concerns me. But no matter what, i guess the Sunday Times will be definitely a good read the next morning. And i really wonder what the outcome will be...
IES Bowl tml morning. Decided to go afterall. And it's a good thing i managed to find people to form a team with. This school holidays is becoming rather uninteresting and boring. I guess the competition will be strong this year. Nah, shan't set any targets. It's suppose to be a fun bowl afterall...
I think my life is seriously boring... zZz
Well, i have to admit, i am a failure. Because i tried, and even continue kidding myself to try again and again. But i still failed. So maybe the answer is there. Sometimes, its not about how much or how hard you try. Some things just happen the way they do for reasons that we can't explain.
For sure there'll be people who thinks i am a loser for saying these. But no, you are in no position to judge me simpy because you didn't go through what i did.
Okay. Some may say that this post is rather pessimistic but i rather think of it as me facing up to reality. Hahah. Oh wells. I suppose there's more to life that just the things that i've been trying right? I hope... :-/
Labels: Randoms
Was about to leave the house when i realised my rubber watch strap has broken. And it can't be replaced because city chain HQ does not have stock of the replacement straps anymore!! :-( It's been only 2 years. But the watch mean a lot to me. Has been with me most of the time when i am running. How can a runner NOT have a watch?! :-( And now i have to search for another watch. And that needs money.
Along the way to the clubhouse, i think i was a little over the speed limit along Nicoll Highway. And no, i was nowhere near a 3 digit speed. A couple of cars in front, but i think we all braked a lil late. It doesn't help that the 'cunning' officer was rather inconspicuous today. *tsk* Let's hope i don't receive any letters anytime soon...
Haircut today was forgettable. Poor and rude service. Totally pissing off. And it was the first time in like 2 years. *tsk*
Ran with the running group peeps in the evening. It was a steady 10k run. But i don't know if it was the neglected calf warm-up or the landing. I am having a very bad muscle strain on my right calf now. And it is totally *ouch* can. :-( Although i highly suspect its the landing. I seem to be using a lot of forefoot today, and i couldn't control. Weird. All i know is that landing is WEIRD today. And now it's aching BAD. Deep-heated already. I hope it gets wells soon. Lol. Maybe i am thinking too much that's why, i mean the landing part. Sometimes things will be fine if you just try lesser.
That about sums up my rather BAD day. Sucks.
Oh, and i met one of my NPCC junior in the locker rooms at the club. Okay, so he was from VS NPCC, went onto VJ (he's from VJ Bowling too!!), and guess what now? He's 'serving the nation' @ Mowbray Camp. Another military policeman in the making. Hahah. Coincidence. And really, i think there's a rather strong correlation between ex-NP cadets and becoming a MP. Lolx.
Been playing 'Uniqlo Surprise' recently. Not that it's really a game. 2 tokens per day when you log in and stand a chance to win wallpaper, ringtones, screen savers blah blah plus Discount Vouchers!! Hahah. Got a couple of 10% discount vouchers already. But not that it makes a lot of diff. Still eyeing on that 50% voucher!! Go check it out: www.uniqlosurprise.com =p
Oh oh, my running group chairman just had his first child!! Received some pics from him the other day on the newborn. A cute little baby boy!! =p Congrats on becoming a father. And yes, parental duties come first. He MIA-ed from the run this evening. Lolx.
Hmm, Friday. Didn't go down VS for the usual NP training. It's been a few weeks. But i guess everything should be fine. No major events coming soon anyway. I should have more faith. =p
That's about all for now. And I realised that i am rather random in this post. Hahah. As usual.
And so 5 papers are over. And i conclude that i am quite DEAD this semester. :-( One more paper left. Kinda demoralized already. But i shall still try as hard anyway. Not that i have been putting in a lot of effort this exam period to begin with. I only managed to abstain from the net for like 3 days? And then that was it. :-/
The good thing about having the last paper on a monday: More time to study!!
The bad thing about having the last paper on a monday: One less weekend to play. -boo-
Suppose to run this evening. But laziness got the better of me. Ended up doing weight training in the gym instead. I should be doing intervals now... *tsk*
And then there was the lady who wrote into Today's forum page the other day, complaining about a group of VS boys and a teacher who didn't clear their tray and mess after a meal @ Macs blah blah... Is that a serious thing? Not that i would think so. Go into any Macs after school hours and i am sure this is a common sight. Come on, i am sure it's the same situation in KAP or Bishan. Not that i am saying that this is the "right" thing to do. But with something like that being so trivial, she's choosing to make such a huge fuss in a national paper. Maybe some of the other readers are right, she's just out to bring a bad name to VS. And i am really irked by the fact that she labelled the kids as "failures". WTH. If she's such a "success" then why didn't she bother to say anything at that point in time but choose to remain quiet? Of course i will be taking a different stance if she had said something but the advice fell on deaf ears. So much for the pot calling the kettle black. And i wonder if anybody will write to the paper in response to her letter. Hmm...
Oh and the silly me finally realised something:
I was along PIE on the way to school when i saw a group of kids playing basketball at a school basketball court, at like 12+ in the afternoon. And it was really WARM that time -.-" But anyway, i took a quick glance and realised that it was Hong Kah sec. Lolx. So it's THERE. After more than 3 years since i started using that road, now i know.
Okay. That was really Random. Lol.
I am itching to start shopping..!!
Week 2 of exams. 2 tough papers this week. :-/
On a much brighter note:
Was at the club yesterday evening. And then i saw A. And before i could react, i saw a smile and a wave. For that split second, ;-D. I think i look too stunned or something. It was afterall, unexpected. But then again, maybe i am thinking too much.
Erm... No. I AM THINKING TOO MUCH. Period. -.-"
Lolx.
And something that has been bugging me the past few days:
I just realised something, or maybe more like i 've been living in denial.
I have an UN-even body.
-URGHHH-
:'(
And the silly thing? I was reduced to tears by somebody i barely know.
Not so much what was said. But more so a stark reminder of what loneliness can be.
Let this be a reminder, again, that some things will never change. Just like the fact that hermits live alone. Ha.
And the people i thought were my friends, for the last decade at least, well, maybe just an acquaintance after all. :-/
I try so hard, too hard. But no matter what, you need 2 hands to clap...
1) Sugary pastries is one food that AGES you!! omg. I need to find a compromise... -sighx-
2) I can't really remember this. I think it's something to do with sugar as well. That it causes acne!! Maybe that explains the 'outbreak' i am having recently. :-(
3) And this, is perhaps the most TRUE for me. I realised, that i have... OCD.
For the uninitiated: OCD = Obsessive-compulsive disorder.
Of the 5 common traits, i think i got 4 of them. :-/ Not exactly something to be proud of, but neither something that i can control either. At least it's much better now compared to last time. Not serious enough to warrant psychiatric treatment. Lolx. As long as it doesn't interfere with my daily life, i guess its still ok.
Oh wells. Just something random i recalled.
Labels: Randoms
I realised i am not in the mood to study at all, just like for the past whole semester. :-/ I think i spend more time online than i am supposed to.
I am so dead. :-(
On another note. It's 17th April.
Happy TWENTY-FORTH Birthday to our dear XY!! =p
Curse the exams. Gonna only celebrate it til much later then. Oh wells.
4 more to go...
I was googling around (don't ask me why am i so 'free'..) when i chanced upon this:
Victoria School NPCC History of Past Batches of NCOs
http://home.vs.moe.edu.sg/sanjayr/hierarchy.doc
Last updated around 4-5 years back. It has a record of the past NCOs and CIs of VSNPCC, and it traces back to some batches whom i have never even met before. Well, i guess it's always good to have some form of record as a piece of heritage of our unit's history, including our past OCs,TOs etc.
So i wonder... If there'll be any 'kind' soul out there who is willing to carry on with the updating?? Hahah. Well, alternatively i'll just KIV it til after exams or something.
P/S: CkW is upset cuz he has been left out somewhere!! -grrrr- :-(
Labels: NPCC
I hate staying at home aka mug for exams.
Firstly, because i have got super HIGH tendencies to snack, continuously. Somehow or other, studying requires lots of energy. And it's eat, study, nap, eat, study, nap... omg.
Secondly, there's no time for any other stuff. And it doesn't help that it's been raining so often recently. Screwed up my running plans again and again. -bleahx-
2 more days to the 1st paper. -sighx- And it doesn't help that i am reading so SLOWLY, with low retention of information. zZz.
I so want my normal life back!!
Couple of random shots. FOOD... Lolx.
Finally got to open that box of chocolates from Genting. Seriously, 20bucks for that?! *tsk*
老婆饼 which Daddy got from HK. Doesn't taste as good as the other brand. Apparently they closed the shop in the airport. Recession woes??
Oh oh!! 4 more weeks and counting down... =p
As i was saying. I went with the Sis to the UNIQLO opening on Thurs morning. Reached at 1005hrs. And gosh, there were like so many people in there already. Singaporeans don't have to work, nor do they have to study. So what do all these people do for a living?! Slackers like us i think. Lolx.
Went to the denim section to look at the jeans. Grabbed 3 and headed to the fitting room. Waited for 5minutes. And little did i realised that they will be my first and last chance into the fitting room. There were 3 cubicles for the guys. But the queue after i came out was snaking round already. Oh, and i like the fit of the jeans!! =p
The shop is huge by most standards. But the crowd/turnout was
Oh, and UNIQLO Sg really lived up to their well known and prided customer service!! All the SAs were friendly and so polite. Something you don't see much in Sg these days. Makes you feel happy too. =p Spent almost 2 hours in the shop. Not really because there's a lot to see, more so because of the queuing and waiting and trying to squeeze from one corner to another. -.-" Had to queue like for 15minutes to even make payments. But i was impressed though. Instead of the usual 3-4 cashiers, they were able to set up another 4 more temporary ones, to help alleviate the long paying queues. Nice.
All in all, i thought it was quite good. Except that the huge crowd really got onto me. I don't really like the 'squeezing' and shopping in crowded conditions these days. -bleahx- Oh, and i spent about 100 bucks, on 2 basic polos (of the same design but different colours.. Lolx.) and one pair of tapered jeans. The jeans were on offer, some opening promo. Erm, yea, i did say i won't be shopping for jeans in a long while a couple of weeks back... :-X But its a different cut!! And it's cheap too. So, justifiable i think. Although i really wonder how often will the jeans be worn. -oops- At least Mummy didn't make a fuss over my buys, unlike the Sis. Hahah. I want to go back again, but probably after exams, when the crowd and fervour subsides.
The huge crowd inside the UNIQLO store. Mostly
The rather "unglam" plastic shopping bag. And it has the blatant advertisement on one side(left). Not as if we all don't already know. Lolx.
Clockwise from left: Navy Polo-tee; White Polo-tee; Dark coloured tapered skinny jeans. Simple and basic stuffs. And i love the purple stitches on the button holes of the navy polo.
And i realised something: Most of the guys who turned up at the store that morning, are all quite "well-dressed" and perhaps "metro". Definitely ups the factor of the brand. =p
Oh, and i met one of my NS juniors there too. I couldn't recognise him at first. The funny thing? We both don't remember each others' names. Hahah. And no, i wasn't the one who said 'hi'.
Dropped by SAFRA Tampines on the way home to collect the freebie for renewing another 5 years of membership.
Not that i really needed another watch. But hey, it's free after all. Hahah. Some classic black leather strap watch by Timex, with a retail value of $100 apparently. There was even the price tag attached to the watch. Lolx. Haven't decided what to do with it though. Shall just hold onto it in the mean time.
Went to school in the afternoon. The tutor was his ULTIMATE today. If you think 30mins (out of an original 2 hour) tutorial was good? He finished in under 15minutes today. Yes, i spent 1 hour to travel back and forth for a 15minute session, to hear him say he haven't started marking our reports and have no comments blah blah. And oh yea, we submitted our final assignment on 'Reflections' too. And that was it. Mummy was rather pissed too and said that i shouldn't go for his tutorials anymore. Erm, yea, i won't. Because yesterday was the LAST one.
And as i was saying earlier, the Sis and me spent the Friday at home mugging. Dinner was out with Mummy. Daddy is away again for the weekends, this time in HK. And i hope he gets me my 老婆饼 and 太阳饼. :-/
Dinner at Kovan food centre. Had to make it short and fast. But we still managed to have delicious food nonetheless! Our favourite hainan bonless chicken rice and fried hokkien prawn noodles. Yummy!! And i must say, the chilli for both dishes is just superb, that is if you are fans of chilli.
Our delicious (and very "SIN-ful") dinner. =p
Another day of mugging at home again laters. And i have a feeling it'll be dinner at Kovan again. Probably something thai i hope? Hehe.
Belkin Laptop Cooling Pad: To prevent my lappie from over heating of course!!
Recommended by Cnet & Digital Life, Straits Times. =p
$49 from Challenger, Funan. Kinda ex, but at least it does its job. Unlike some other models. Lolx.
Daddy's super BIG umbrella. I don't think the picture is doing the size justice. Hahah. But it's like one of the biggest umbrealla i've seen. Easily for 4 adults. And it's from Adidas!! =p But Daddy is not gonna lend/share it with me. *tsk* $50 (after discount) from the shop @ Bishan driving range. He claims that its for "golfers". -.-" I am thinking of getting one for my car...
Oh oh!! For people who has a weakness for all things sweet: Heads Up!! There's this shop in serangoon, Jalan Riang to be exact, that sells cheap and delicious cakes!! Small little confectionery shophouse that distributes to others i think. But don't be fooled by the exterior of the quaint looking shop!!
(Clockwise from top: Chocolate Truffle; Durian Cake; Blueberry Cheesecake.)
Don't be fooled by their plain looks and unappealing plastic box. If you ask me for a favourite, i really can't decide on one. Each one of them are different and taste just as good!! And the best part? It's only $10 for any 3 slices, or $3.50 per slice. And i heard the mango mousse is good too. Pity they didn't have it that day. :-(
P/S: I am by no means any way related to the people working there, nor am i taking a commission for recommending it. =p But you can ask me if you want to know where exactly is the place.
And last but not least, i received an important letter a few weeks back. Have been waiting AGES for it.
Nah, nothing to do with NS reservist. Lolx.
It's my confirmation letter from NPCC HQ!!
Yupx. Apparently i've cleared my probation already, since 22nd Dec last year. The letter was dated in Feb this year, and i only got it like late March? -.-" Well, like i mentioned before. HQ is very well known for its "efficiency" i guess.
And yes. I am now officially a H/INSP(NPCC). =p
5 years to the first "choc bar"? Lolx. Long long time...